The end of May.
I made it. May was full- full-full.
I traveled to Boston to surprise my Mom for her 70th birthday. I can’t remember the last time it was the original four of us on a holiday. No kids, no husbands, no friends. Honestly since high school. It was really a beautiful time and I’m so glad we did it. Here’s a little reminder to spend time with your parents :)
I started thinking about how socials are sometimes so toxic. I get into the doom scroll and feel bad about my self. I wanted to remind people that what you see on socials is the best of the best- the most joyous times. That everyone has a lot going on behind the scenes that aren’t visible. I sometimes feel like I am not doing enough or having enough and I have to take a step back and truly enjoy what I do have…I started to remove the things that don’t serve me in my life visually and it helps a lot. Sometimes I think about not sharing so much to avoid scrutiny, but here I am.
Most I can’t share but I’ll here are little bits. I have insomnia ever since I had my 2nd kid. I have been trying to rebuild my brand after some crazy events for the last 3 years, I keep going and going but half the time I want to throw in the towel and give up and move to a farm. I have bad anxiety- my whole life- and when I drink it seems to be worse, but I love the way alcohol settles my anxiety. Sorta a double edged sward.
I’m lucky to move into a new house and make it special for my family- but moving to a new town can also be lonely – making adult friends is hard! I have a fear of dying, but mainly because I don’t want to miss a moment with my kids. I want to go to therapy, but therapy is expensive then I stress about money and then I need therapy. Ya feel me?
I try to take life more day by day but I always need to remind my self that no one has it all together. Not me, that’s clear!
Anyways- my thoughts for the week. ‘May Loves’ is a mix bag. Let’s go!
Everything new J.Crew right now is amazing- all the eyelets in yellows and ivorys. I got a handful of things. This necklace, perfect gift to send your lover for a birthday. A forever piece. Pleated mini skirt, flat strap white sandal I have an love with a white dress. Best hand cream, and the bottles so pretty I actually leave it by my bed. Beautiful white dress I love the shape, oil cleanser I am obsessed with (no joke it’s so nice) I trust anything that brand makes because they make olive oil as well. Butter linen trousers.
Stripe shorts (great pockets) Beautiful blue undies I got with the matching bra. Oversized long sleeve Tee ( I got a L) This lilac mirror dress I just ordered for a trip. The Rich Face Cream- yes it’s worth the price. Good with this trio skin routine. Baby blue skirt and striped espadrilles. I love these eye patches, I always have two in my bag incase. This embellished dress I want to wear with a black shoe- it’s to die for! These shell spoons for dinner parties and this sweatshirt for chilly mornings.
The only (amazing smelling) cleaning brand I use in my house, rainbow straw bag- love these colors! Ulla has done it again with this dress. Best face scrub (code cydney15) but keep it in the shower its messy. Summer comfortable sandal, great double belt jeans and a santale parfume I actually like. Then Negative came out with my favorite bra with a thin strap and I’m freaking out- this is the bra you guys. THE bra!!
This thin cardigan I wear over my shoulders or waist- better IRL than online. These lights I got for my sons room- havn’t started to decorate his room yet so heres a start. The Great is doing GREAT things right now, I have this black dress (comes in white too) and its perfect, if you get one thing it’s this. . Seriously perfect. Fringe top- Ibiza summer? We can wish. Studded shoes and this halter neck silk dress that is just simple and sexy and easy I like It. Snake wedge shoe- I have the original of these shoes and these are a much better price. Dorseys new rope necklace (Cant wait for mine) and this blazer fits so beautifully- I would wear a pair of summer mini shorts (some in my shop) with it at night.
Satin halter top, baby blue tablecloth for a great price, dream summer shoe ( these will sell out) baby blue shirt that is perfect with these jeans (have- I love) White brocade summer throw on, sunglasses, blue shell necklace I love. This little bag I just wore to a baby shower and it’s amazing. Terry towel lace up top (perfect summer top) and this white tank I love and this version is just as cute and cheaper.
Blue tank (just ordered) Miu Miu set I really freaking want. Zebra shades, boxing shorts, coffee table book. This navy Prada Bag I want SO bad but my Affirm account is telling me no damnit. Ugh it’s gorgeous! Summer beaded slides, head scarf, carry all bag (love this material) and a linen tube dress. I know tubes are scary for some but this is so nice on and $69!
all that and more here! x Cyd